“and I wish we never did it.”

This is hard.

Like I know relationships are work….but this is just….

Things used to be so easy, thats what I admired….now its almost like a burden.

But its me. I have issues I cant explain at this point in my life that are probably not conducive to a relationship. This is the first time I have been completely faithful in a relationship almost ever. The first time where I have given my all and I guess that scares me. What happens now, that you have all of me..? Where exactly do we go from here? Why do I wake up feeling emotionally imbalanced?

This love was once giving me more than I ever desired..now its barely scratching the surface….Im at a lost now.

I dont wanna do this, I used to able to walk away from anything. Leave any guy when I wanted pick up or put down when i wanted but now I cant. I got everything I wanted now I dont and part of me wants to run full force in the opposite direction back to what I know and the part of me wants to cling onto the little string we call love…and I dont know when I fell this deep..but part of me wishes I hadnt.

“I couldnt find out who I was, till I realized what I was NOT….”

“the non worrying, that’s about to take place in my life may be shocking to some, but itll be worth it.”

“i have so much to say…please forgive me in advance.”

The Revelations of a Black Esther: "Coal to Diamonds"-Revelation for my Sisters

revelationsofblackesther:

This revelation came to me Wednesday night from a guy apart of my young adult ministry however, I was encouraged by God to look deeper into the whole “Coal turns into a diamond” thing and really correlate the similarities between that process and the process we call a lifestyle….

What was said…